Stepping out from Comfort zone

Last year June 2011 period, I was in my bunk discussing with my Army buddies about our post army life. Most of them who had placing in University will be studying while those who have not secure any placing, will go to society to work. For me, I am in a cross junction do not know which path in my life should I go. In camp, I still advice others to choose something more practical. 

When my ORD was getting nearer, I went around the job portal to submit my resume just to hope company from anywhere will contact me for an interview. I have no reason or purpose of doing it, just send it and hope that there will be someone who can enlighten me and create a path for me. 

One day, just so coincident that I met my sister's financial adviser who got me to ask her for advice and I was been introduced to her team in early July 2011. I spent two to three days with my boss, Mr Anthony Boon following him to his tailor shop, blood donation and other activities. I do not know what am I doing. I had just literally follow and waiting for things to happen. 

After ORD, I went to join them for meeting. I do not know what to do. Hence, I spent time doing nothing and just book for my financial test and pray that I will just pass. I started feeling aimless and clueless with what I am doing. This period, I just take what is coming. I was approached by SHINE a model agency and I went to took a $300+ model shoot and in the end, I rejected the offer. I was also introduced by my students' mum to work in a motor company and I also rejected them. 

People around me started to comment about me. Asking me to stop what I am doing and work on something more practical and better for now. I was pretty tempted by them and trying to look for other alternative. I do not know what make me don't feel like living what I am doing. I always have a sense of believe that I should stay here to get tame to work for my life. 

In March 2012, I finally pass all my 4 papers after 16 - 17 times of taking those exams. I hurry to get my license with the help of my primary school mate, Lee Li Li. And, what now after I got my license! I am happy but with a lot of doubts with this new arena. Hence, I decided to make a change of my life by working as a part timer and will go and look for a full time job. 

Life is well planned for me. At the time of looking for a full time job, I was not given fast. Until a point, I meet up with Anthony and he assign Katherina Goh as my mentor. And this step, it had created a path for me. 

With the help from Katherina, I am able to see and gain a lot about what I need to do. I really thanks her for all her teaching and work that she had done for me. 

To be continue... 

23 March 2012 - A push within me

Chatting with friends, going to library to borrow books. It had changed my life. For the past few days, I am looking for the purpose of my life. For the past 6 months, I am just doing soul searching. Finally, I was enlighten only past few days.

Let's don't rack up the past. Move ahead! I borrow books on purpose. Purpose is not a goal. Purpose is how we want our life to be. Purpose is everything in our life. Purpose define our actions in making decision. As for goal, it is an achievements. Hence, it is different.

I was told about my purpose, and the initial purpose like wanting to be successful, earning lot of money, etc. It doesn't drive me. I don't feel anything special about it. But after reading through, I was inspired and understand it better. I finally understand what Anthony means. It what I had mentioned above.

My purpose is to share on the financial concepts that I had learnt to everyone I get to meet. Everyone are my friends. I treat them with utmost respects and diligently care. Whether they take my advise or not, I had play my part to share with them.

My goals are to meet at least 12 friends a weeks so I can keep sharing my knowledge and make it part of my life. Constantly update on necessary information so as to provide my friends with lastest and real time information. To be a tag man when my friends need a financial advice or needs.

I believe with my positive approach, my payout will be worth doing it. I am not doing sales, with my honesty I am sure to tell others I am here to share with you on our life reality. We as oneself should know how to protect. With the harmony of our inner self, it will help to bloom our economy.

I am on for this. Will you join me?

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A Goal setting day: 19 March 2012…

Waking up around 9am, first things in mind was to find out voluntary work for my dear friend Zhi Zhong who told me that he need to find something meaningful as he was diagnosed with stage 3 cancer. At least I do some homework when meet him. After that, I work on my expenses and Life saving course payment breakdown. Realizing that I am really very far from what I want. I am not earning enough to stay happy.

From there, I decided to find out my earning and think for better opportunities for me to drive me to my $2,000. At least I know how much I charge for my course as I compare to other companies as stated in their website. (I did my research!)

But the problem is, I spent too long to solve the payment breakdown. It isn’t so productive. I need to work find tune my work again. Anyway, I completed most of my tasks today. Suppose to meet Zhi Zhong today but he cancelled due to not feeling well. I carry on working on the breakdown.

At 4pm, I went to bank to deposit money from the yesterday 3 students. And here I go to coach Glen and Gayle.

Same problem from Gayle for not looking into the water. But their froggy kick were good! After lesson I told Gayle if she do not put head into water, I am going to be strict to her. Hope she will performed next week. Jasmine, both kids parent told me that they always look forward for my lesson. It is really great to hear that.

After coaching, I went to run at NTU. Was really slow but I completed 3/4 of the campus. Reach home, had dinner and went to help my dad for his income tax. Think I need to find out more about it.

After that, bath and now blogging. Time to sleep! =)

It is a tiring 18 March 2012…

It was a tiring morning! I was too exhausted by the yesterday night Angie’s 1 year old party. Spending all my energy playing with children during the party and get home, slept at 1am. The next day waking up at 6am. It was tiring because I do not have a deep sleep. I feel like I am not resting. Mind keep having thoughts.

No matter how, I still have to wake up for coaching. No food to eat, I left home early. Got message that Lestes buying food, not long later he message me that the shop is closed so I have to buy. Looking at the timing, I foresee that he is going to be late. And yes he was late.

Lesson was quite normal but I feel more boost that boost than before. I need lose voice when I am shouting. I believe my lesson is more interesting as parents were also laughing at my jokes. I am really happy to see the kids like me. They enjoy my class. After lesson, life saving lesson was good but I need to revamp my lessons to cater for their test.

After lesson, I went back home to sleep. I was really tired. At 2.30pm, NEA reported that there are raining and thunder at Jurong West area. But at the pool, it is bright and shine. But we were bar for entering the pool. My new life saving class start at 3pm was pushed back to 4pm. From 4pm was pushed back to 4.30pm. Then again, push back to 5pm. By the time keep pushing back, it really started raining. And for my new class, I have to cancelled and start next week.

Hurry run home, and had a good chat with Xiao gu. Went to bath and we went out to have dinner at Bukit Batok for clay pot rice. Went to visit my Angie again! And got a teddy bear back to give it to WeiJie daughter; Tanya’s 1st Birthday. Shhh.. don’t tell anyone! But no matter how, I will still give some gift which is more practical.

After got back home, I watch Channel news Asia. And it shown people who do shift work or night shift, chances of getting Cancer is higher. (Need to find out more!) After which, I had a very wonderful sleep.

Let’s Celebrate! 17 March 2012!

Wake up early at 6am for my Coco Crunch for breakfast. Leaving home early to meet WeiJie at Lakeside MRT. Today coaching I only have 8 students in total. Saw Justin and Jess left my group to join Lestes’s Class! Feel sad that they left me. After lesson, I swam about 14 laps then went Starbuck with Jia Kang.

Went back home and brought third sister lunch, and no one at home. So I just prepare myself for later activity. While waiting for Lesley to call me to inform me about location, I stay at home looking for Ba Zhi or 4 Pillars.

I hurry to The Frontier CC Conference room to meet them. First time saw Ricky from Ayer Rajah YEC. It was a huge group of members from West Coast GRC to join in this team building. That was a good move. There are always a lot of ideas coming to my mind. Night Cycling clinic, Walkathon, etc. These are projects that come to my mind. No more thoughts please! Cause I would like to focus on my work.

After the session, I hurry to Floravale to celebrate my dear niece, Angie Lau 1 year old birthday celebration. Reach there, I went to change to swimming attire and start swimming. Pretty fun. After that, I was like a kids entertainer for the whole session. Overall, I did enjoy myself.

After the celebration, Forth sister send two of the grand aunties home. I was a good and lucky boy to have a grand mother! They give me feel that my grandmother is really good to nature me to be healthy and sensible. They also make me feel that we should not compare, if comparison do happen, there will never be an ending to it. No matter how, Happiness is the most important!

I shall share these all. Others are not really fixed. So not good to think so much. I am really exhausted! Got to sleep now!  

What a Start for 16 March 2012?

Thought my plans for today will be burned but no doubt I had clear my purpose of today.

Waking up at 9am with a mind to go for a run but was feeling headache during to my wisdom tooth affecting me, so I go back to my sleep. Was wondering what to do since my plan is destructed. I start to go back to my usual tasks by playing with my niece, lying on bed and fall asleep. Suppose to meet Sabrina Leong, but was cancelled. Wondering what to do…

My relative came to my house for visit and I was at the midst of packing my belonging from a table at my living room. With them, I stop. I feel so uncomfortable. So, time spent at the moment was really bad.

At about 4pm, I went out to do coaching for my nephew and niece. I was there about 30 minutes early and I went for a swim. I really miss it! I have not being swimming or training for about few months. Hence, I decided to go back to my sports; swimming and running again!

During coaching, Both of them is doing freestyle and can swim without a board now! Wonderful! And they are working on breaststroke, their kicking was great too! Phew… Effort was not wasted after so long!

Reach home, I get my dinner done and I rest awhile more. Then with the mind fixed, I put on my shoes and went for running at the stadium. I make myself run 30 minutes non stop. Stitch start to come, I persevere! I tell myself is only 30 minutes, it is ending soon. To link to my life, I feel that I am taking my IPPT or marathon. The current status I was just walking or maybe just lazing myself at the start point. When the time I start to run, I feel a bit pain I stop. I have not give up yet. But I keep having the thoughts of giving up. Katherina shared to me, “No one will give up on you, unless you give up yourself”. I really agree to it.

After my run, I remember there was a RC Youth Chapter meeting. It was really interesting to meet new people!

Anyway, for the whole today even though I spend time on bed, but I find that today I had a purpose and meaning to it! There are more to come!

Before I sleep, I got a surprise from one of my friend. He just added me in facebook. And telling me that he is having stage 3 Cancer. I do not know how to react. Hope it is a plank. We arrange a meet up on coming Monday as he would like to do volunteering work.

Lastly, I am feeling so warm after my run! Cool!

What happen on 15 March 2012?

Turn and toss on my bed in the middle of night around 3am. I need to sleep! The next morning, I want to wake up early at 8am for a run. Having the sleepless night, I doubt I can make it.

When the sun rise at 9am, I am still in bed. Cannot forgive myself for having such a bad attitude. I cannot afford to go for a run anymore. I need to prepare myself to meet Terence at 11am. My intuition make me feel that I will be late no matter how. In the end, I have to extend my time to meet Terence to 11.15am cause my grandma need my help to change bed sheet at a very last minute.

Leaving my house, I took a train down to Bugis. On my way down, I cannot afford to be even later than 11.15am. Hence, I took a cab down. Went to purchase Yukee Duck rice for our meet up for lunch at Jalan Psiang Road. On my way down to his office, I cannot not find it. Passing by other street name but just thought that I can see at the front of the building. In the end, I back track and look into the alley then I saw the company logo.

It was a small office but it was a big company. Terence is the Chief Executive Officer for Asia. During the first meet up, I am feeling inferior to talk to him. But he is really nice to talk to just that I feel that I am a beggar without any status talking to a king! Now, I feel more open up! He is my friend, a brother, a coach!

Anyway, what he pointed out about me is right! I feel the same way. But I do not know how to work on it. I am stuck in my life. I remember, before my Hong Kong exchange programme, Terence had asked me about what I want to do in my life. I cannot give a concrete answer to it. After the trip, I tend to smoke around showing that I am confident that I know what I am doing. But I am not. And now, the same thing. It had being a year without an answer.

What about me? I am lazy. I am not driven. I have not grown up to think mature. I am not facing the reality. I had nested myself to doing nothing it is not productive. I know all these but I just cannot stop myself from all these.

I really have to Thanks Terence for enlighten me and making me understand what my status. But I am not sure whether can I walk out of these problem. Then heading back home, back to my usual habits. I went to sleep… So, Back to square one!! AAARRRRGGGGHHHHH!!!

What I had on 14 March 2012?

A bad habit of waking up at nine o’clock in the morning; It is so late. After finish brushing my teeth, I spent hours playing with my niece. Then I decided to get myself something to eat for breakfast. That was about 11am; by the time I finish two packets of hello panda biscuits and an ang-gu-kua, I am too full to have my lunch. 

I spent time surfing net, starred some magazine websites for reading purposes but doubts I will read it. Hence, might be a waste of time after doing that. Never forget, I will spare my another not purposeful time with my niece.

At about half pass one o’clock, I hurry to change up to meet Kit See (My PAYM Jie) at Woodland MRT at three o’clock. It is so good to meet her even though we do not have any more working relationship but we are still friends.

Kit See had applied for one year unpaid leave after seven years of working in People Association (PA). This really show that PA is actually a nice place to work in. Well, I never want to join them cause I want to remain as a volunteers as it give me the joys and flexibility in volunteering.

Anyway, we had a chat about my life. I share with her that I am confuse with what I want to do in my life. Sharing about my the amount needed to nature a child till they reach an independent/legal age – 21, we need about 1 million to provide them with the best. And after divided our into a month, it will required about $4K per month. That is for one child and that is the amount for per household needed. If we are earning a regular pay of $3K each for a couple, minus off $4K you will only left with $2K for other expenses. Are we ready for this kind of burden? Most people don’t really bother or consider with this. Does your currently job help in filling up the expenses? Will there be additional burden when you had a kid?

I am worried about it. I do not want that to burden my life. I want to be financially independent. Which make me feel that joining Zheng Branch is a right choice. But I decided to leave. Am I making the right decision?

I share about what I want to do with Kit See. I told her that I would like to go back to my swim team to conduct my life saving lesson to earn money and set my an event side to keep my passion of event organising going. These are all from my heart; which are the answer of what I really want. But at the point that I am keying in my thought here, I feel that I need to stay as a financial advisor to break free myself from financial burden. I need to organize myself to what I really want in life. This shall be something that I need to work on.

After meeting Kit See, I have an dental appointment at five o’clock at Woodland Mart. I am so anxious to meet a dental after five years since I left my secondary school. All thanks to my wisdom tooth for giving me headache and pain. Also really have to thanks Jun Yuan for introducing me to the dental. Pretty good and wonderful sharing about my teeth. It make me know my condition. Price seem reasonable, service was excellent. Maybe it is my first time after for so long. So I fine it pretty good.

On my way back to Jurong, I met Josiah’s mum in the train. We had a wonderful chat with his mum till we also arranged a meet up on this coming Sunday for dinner. I feel that we have a lot more to talk and she willing to share with me more about her children activities.

And not long later, Desmond Ong called me and we meet up. I accompanied him for dinner. At the drink store, I met one lady who claimed that she know my mum. I am stunt and she offer to treat me a cup of tea that I ordered. So yup, I got a free drink. After Desmond finish eating, we went to Starbuck where he meet Eddy’s financial planner – Jeslyn from Manual life. She was there to inform Desmond for being his investment witness. But from what I see, it is just getting a referrer in another way. I just feel weird and uncomfortable to see how she present. It was so fake. I dislike their approach. She was there with us for more than an hour.

Went to Fairprice to get some bread and drinks. While Desmond went to buy a 1.5 litre of water for working later at night in his office. I actually wondering what he had share is reliable. But there is no other things that prove him wrong, I will just believe him. And from what I know about him, he don’t lie.

After which, got home, share with my family about dental experience and here I am sharing with my blog! =)

Where are my friends?

After looking at my friend’s hard disk photos, I am really envy about the memories he had in the past. The group of friendship he foster, the relationship that he build was really exciting. They had lot of gathering and activities with his classmates and CCA friends. For me, I have classmates and CCA friends, but I don’t think I had treasure them that much.

Well, I have a lot of friends. When I really in need of help, will my friends be there to help me? I believe I have a few of them who will help. Will Edmund’s friends help? Sure there are.

Hence, I shall not compare. Just stay happy with our group of friends. Don’t be calculative to stay as a friends. A friends who will help and be there for you will definitely be categories as Best friends/buddies. Friends who left when you are in need will be known as friends/acquaintances.  When there is nothing happen, friends will just be a friends. Sometime can also categories a group of friends as Hi – Bye friends and acquaintances. Those who usually meet will be best friends/Buddies; where you guys hang out for joys and accompany when you are safe.

Friendship can build anytime, anywhere. Nevertheless, we have to treasure it, appreciate them. No matter how, we will need them.

Thank you my dear friends. I am sorry that I had neglect you. But I believe most of you really wish me to be successful. I wish you guys be success and happy always.

Early morning exercise

Good morning everyone!
This morning I woke up at 5.30am thinking feel so energize to wake up to start my day. It was a motivation that I got from Robin Sharma who wake up at 5am everyone and goes to bed at 11.30pm everyday. I assume that his daily routine. I believe it is a healthy lifestyle. He mentioned that people sleep more cause they have nothing better to do, hence it makes us feel like continue to sleep.

This morning, since I woke up so early I decided to do some exercise. I started off planning my tasks list so that I can focus and work on it.
I hope that this is not a few second attitude. I shall continue with this routine!
Happy lunar new year!

Regards,
Zhi Wang 

2012 Chinese new year

Wishing everyone a fruitful and joyful years ahead. Get what you wish, fulfill what you dream!

I would like to share with you my team motto: Dream big, think small, start small, start now!

I am not sure how this coming year will be, but I am sure that I am lack of self motivation and discipline. How far can I go? I don't know. I believe I have alot supporters cheering me. Thank you!

I am sorry that I had disappoint you and you guys did not give up on me.

I always believed in every problem, there is always a solution. And my problem is myself. I need to change myself to be a better man. Be more hardworking, actively involved, discipline and positively motivated.

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First supper!

My very first supper had given to Jurong Green YEC man! The first friend jio kind of supper, the first non work related supper, the first driving supper! I am really fortunate to meet these group of friends! Thank you.

We met at 11.30pm at jurong spring community club and head down to Jalan Bersah area to have dim sum at sum chun. It is damn nice! Operating time is from 6pm to 10am. I promise! Once I earn more than 3k, I will bring my parents down to eat!

Once again, Thank you Tiong hian, Desmond, Xin yu and Eddy for the wonderful trip! Shall see you guy one more time before new year!

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I want to make full use of every minutes and seconds!

Who take the control? Yourself or the time? Now I am slowly gaining control of the time. I am building a large pail to hold the water. Now I am just using a leaf to hold whatever I can.

I had wasted my money and time for the past 4 to 5 months! I cannot take it! And now I foresee to spend another 2 to 3 months to start up my career. Should i? No matter how, I have to move on with YES! I should!

Why!? It is because I have not started working and not yet trying out and I just give up! I am not going to be this! And that's not me! What make me so upset is because I am afraid! Nah! Stupid excuse! The problem lied on me!
1) Focus- I wanted to study but was always prefer to work on other things when it is so instant. I saw my niece so cute, got attracted to her.
2) Discipline- When ever I want to start studying, I keep running around busy finding entertainment, just do not keep my ass still and take the book start studying.
3) Lack of company- Yes! I found a Kaki but seem like our plans is different. Wonder what he actually thinking.
4) Lack of linkage- I am unable to see in the normal business process and I do not link to anything that I am doing at home. If I go office, what they said might create a link for me to understand. Mmm.. Maybe I really should go office!
5) Sense of urgency!- I did sense it but do not know why I just don't want to push myself and see it a point! I got to gear up! Stop whinning! Start working!

Hopefully what I had key in today will come in handy! Everything is to put my first step out! And play by ear after that! I have to start sailing and I believe, 船到桥头之然值!

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Infant baby class!

23 Dec 2011: My sister brought Baby Angie to swimming pool to play and fifth aunt brought her Joshua who she baby sit too. We head down to condo parc ossis which we do not know any of the residents.

When playing with them. I concluded that I have not being coaching learn to swim and somehow had lost touch with it.

I had miss out the basic fundamental key which is to have fun and more games to engage them. I am just so serious with what a beginner should do to go straight to build their strokes. So, chill bro! Make learning be more fun! Enjoy the learning process man! =)

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Ride to sunrise - Night cycling 2011

It is my pleasure to be the organizing chairman for this year **Ride to sunrise - Night cycling 2011*.
This project started in November 2010. Started first meeting in March. Confirm organizing committees in October 2011. And finally 10 December 2011 is the day!

To be frank, I do not like this feeling. I had made this project like without this there will be no tomorrow. Why I said this is because I keep taking this project or projects as an excuse for not focusing my future. I do not care about what I need to be done but just living in denial.

Ultimately, it is over and completed the two-third of the project phase. The last phase is to tidy up the place and check out from the chalet.

Through this project, I had gain a lot from it. Knowing which youth club or committees are the most helpful and workable team, who is a team players and who is resourceful. The friendship that I had foster is really very precious. Shall make it stay on and keep our like minded people together and make things out of it.

Beside friendship, I had grown a lot from it. I understand more about myself throughout this four month plus journey. I am actually a very lazy and happy go lucky person. I do not fight for what I want. Just bouncing wherever I was push to and adapt to the direction. My plan keep changing and do not have a fixed and firm answer in life.

I had wasted my money and time just gambling to pass my financial test. And surprisingly, I am a persistent person. Which I have something in mind, if there is not other reason to change, I will just do it with motion. But there is no drive in it. Which ended up, I did not really study and work for the test. I wasted like my whole saving. Just to gamble whether I am always that lucky.

Eventually, I had completed my event. Now it is the time to cool down from the run! Thank you very much to Ken Ong, Wei ping, Jacqueline Ang, Chin kuan, Tiong hian, Desmond Ong, Alan Lau and lastly, our guest Steven Lim for your effortlessly support and patient. You guys are really the backbone of this wonderful project. Thank you!

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It is a waste for a day...

Wake up at 10plus in the morning. That was so late from what I had planned! I have no ideas why, I just did nothing the whole day. Play with my niece, watch video on phone!

The only point I feel energize is only I left my house and went for a swim. This is my second time! Not bad! Gonna keep this habit. After which, I got home, prepare my stuff and didn't study!! Just wasted my time and waiting for time up for me to go Senja for second round of swim!

Reached, and ask Senja why my Night cycling banner is not up yet! And head for swim! Today training is backstroke! Thought gonna die. But I manage to finish and even more!
It was a good swim indeed.

After swim, Lestes, WeiJie and I went pioneer coffeeshop for supper. I had a bowl of porridge. It is nice!
Reached home, bath and do nothing.
It is really a waste that I am unable to fulfill what I need to do!

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17.11.11 - A more productive day

I wake up pretty later than usual, started working on night cycling event. Completed writing last Sunday meeting minutes. Had approval from Pearlie that the road had officially for use. Went for a swim and distribute Yakult.

Yes. Sound good. But think I can be better. I had miss out studying, booking of my test, do my reading. And swim in the morning. Shall work on it tomorrow.

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15 November: 5th M9 test

Yahoo! I FAILED AGAIN
It is not the first paper that I took more than 4 times. M5 I managed to pass on the 5th. And now, M9 I have to take the sixth attempt.
I am not giving up. But guess I need a break from it.

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A wake up call

Wake up! Wake up!
Today I had spend a few hours studying and working on my project stuff. Eventually, I feel that I did not really study.
I always had a heavy heartfelt feeling about what I want to work as. It is also confusing and hard to explain feeling whenever thought of it.

Today, WeiDe actually said out a potion of what my heart is feeling which I keep escaping or avoiding it. I don't dare to face it.

When my friends or relatives asked me what am I doing now after my NS, I will tell them swimming instructor. Now also training to be a financial advisor. I am not confident with what I said. Afraid to say what I actually doing. There is fear in me. And I disappoint myself.

It is too late that I was not given a chance to work in Warren. But nevertheless, I need to get a job first to stable my financial first. Also, if I am manage to pass my test, I still have to find some job to cover my lost for the first few month of career first.

Anyway, thank you WeiDe for enlighten me.

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