Who take the control? Yourself or the time? Now I am slowly gaining control of the time. I am building a large pail to hold the water. Now I am just using a leaf to hold whatever I can.
I had wasted my money and time for the past 4 to 5 months! I cannot take it! And now I foresee to spend another 2 to 3 months to start up my career. Should i? No matter how, I have to move on with YES! I should!
Why!? It is because I have not started working and not yet trying out and I just give up! I am not going to be this! And that's not me! What make me so upset is because I am afraid! Nah! Stupid excuse! The problem lied on me!
1) Focus- I wanted to study but was always prefer to work on other things when it is so instant. I saw my niece so cute, got attracted to her.
2) Discipline- When ever I want to start studying, I keep running around busy finding entertainment, just do not keep my ass still and take the book start studying.
3) Lack of company- Yes! I found a Kaki but seem like our plans is different. Wonder what he actually thinking.
4) Lack of linkage- I am unable to see in the normal business process and I do not link to anything that I am doing at home. If I go office, what they said might create a link for me to understand. Mmm.. Maybe I really should go office!
5) Sense of urgency!- I did sense it but do not know why I just don't want to push myself and see it a point! I got to gear up! Stop whinning! Start working!
Hopefully what I had key in today will come in handy! Everything is to put my first step out! And play by ear after that! I have to start sailing and I believe, 船到桥头之然值!
I had wasted my money and time for the past 4 to 5 months! I cannot take it! And now I foresee to spend another 2 to 3 months to start up my career. Should i? No matter how, I have to move on with YES! I should!
Why!? It is because I have not started working and not yet trying out and I just give up! I am not going to be this! And that's not me! What make me so upset is because I am afraid! Nah! Stupid excuse! The problem lied on me!
1) Focus- I wanted to study but was always prefer to work on other things when it is so instant. I saw my niece so cute, got attracted to her.
2) Discipline- When ever I want to start studying, I keep running around busy finding entertainment, just do not keep my ass still and take the book start studying.
3) Lack of company- Yes! I found a Kaki but seem like our plans is different. Wonder what he actually thinking.
4) Lack of linkage- I am unable to see in the normal business process and I do not link to anything that I am doing at home. If I go office, what they said might create a link for me to understand. Mmm.. Maybe I really should go office!
5) Sense of urgency!- I did sense it but do not know why I just don't want to push myself and see it a point! I got to gear up! Stop whinning! Start working!
Hopefully what I had key in today will come in handy! Everything is to put my first step out! And play by ear after that! I have to start sailing and I believe, 船到桥头之然值!
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