It is a waste for a day...

Wake up at 10plus in the morning. That was so late from what I had planned! I have no ideas why, I just did nothing the whole day. Play with my niece, watch video on phone!

The only point I feel energize is only I left my house and went for a swim. This is my second time! Not bad! Gonna keep this habit. After which, I got home, prepare my stuff and didn't study!! Just wasted my time and waiting for time up for me to go Senja for second round of swim!

Reached, and ask Senja why my Night cycling banner is not up yet! And head for swim! Today training is backstroke! Thought gonna die. But I manage to finish and even more!
It was a good swim indeed.

After swim, Lestes, WeiJie and I went pioneer coffeeshop for supper. I had a bowl of porridge. It is nice!
Reached home, bath and do nothing.
It is really a waste that I am unable to fulfill what I need to do!

posted from Bloggeroid

17.11.11 - A more productive day

I wake up pretty later than usual, started working on night cycling event. Completed writing last Sunday meeting minutes. Had approval from Pearlie that the road had officially for use. Went for a swim and distribute Yakult.

Yes. Sound good. But think I can be better. I had miss out studying, booking of my test, do my reading. And swim in the morning. Shall work on it tomorrow.

posted from Bloggeroid

My first Wisdom Tooth!

My First Wisdom Tooth! 

I am wondering is this a good news or bad news! After my ORD and after 3 months, this is what I had discovered! I found my first wisdom tooth! You might be thinking that I am crazy. What a big deal of this. 

When I am serving my Nation service. I always wish that I had a wisdom tooth so that I am able to extract it out and get a period out from my service. But I do not have a chance. Sometime I do wonders why I do not have. Maybe it is good that I do not have to suffer the pain. But on and off, I do feel headache, giddiness or toothache and I still wonder why. 

There is a period I keep feeling pain and I started to assume that the wisdom tooth is growing. Feeling happy that I can experience it, and feeling worries for the pain and cost. In the end, it just a false alarm. 

This time round! It is real! Yesterday, 31 October 2011, I went out to meet Thiam Lye, Poh Heng and Kenny to catch movie - 2359 (A Singapore Production which reflect the ghost story during National service.) On my way to West mall, I flex my tongue to reach to my last tooth on the left. Here I found my little tip of my wisdom tooth! That's keep my tongue busy. 

This morning before I brush my teeth, I hurry to inform my mum about it. And started counting my upper level tooth. Total there are 15! And lower case got only 14! It is true that one more teeth extra! 

Feeling like an Astronaut!

This song somehow like expressing what I am feeling. I am seeking help. What help? I have no ideas. My mind is struggling to seek for a smooth journey to my career path and my body had restricted me from working hard. 
Excuses keep coming out. Self discipline is just not working in me. Where are they? 
Another problem that I had is that my mind cannot focus one thing at a time. When I plan to study for my test, my heart keep drifting away to worried about the night cycling event. And when that happen, I will choose not to do anything just procrastinate. "That is not good!" but I keep doing it. Rather sleep than thinking about anything related to it. 
Well, feel so great after expressing in here! 

My audience

Dear Audience,

I am really grateful to have you.
Please forgive my broken english. As I just key in without looking through for error and without disgusting it properly. But I believe you still understand what I am writing right! =p

Why I start of with this is because my Sister is one of my audience! She came back and told me I inspired her to start a blog too! That is good news too.

Alright. Now here my Sharing.

I realize I had spent more than a month doing what I do not think I should do. I am now not spending, and earning very little! I am just staying a home rotting and staring in the blank! Well, I had slowly stepping out of my room of the blank space.

Why slowly? It is because I decided to take it slowly as I am taking this moment to enjoy what I have around me. If I were to start working, the time that I spend for my family will be even lesser. After my granny went to the hospital, I realize things will be very different without her. How long will she be with me? What can I do for her to make her feel living in this world is worthwhile! What she had given me, is something that can never so easily be replace. Why is that so! It is just the heart to heart relationship that we had.

For the past days, I had push her out of house and we went suntan near by. And today, I brought her to Pioneer Mall and she saw clothing that she could wear. I was with some fear as I know that if she were to buy, she will still have problem with the fitting of the clothing. That is additional problem. After that, we went to MacDonald and I had my breakfast. Then pushes her with her Mercedes to near by neighborhood and end the trip. For the whole trip I had never get her to spend. Cause the amount that she spend on me is always more than what I can spend for her.

When I am at home, I realize that I always keep sway with other projects instead of studying. My projects is kind of worries for me. And I just send email getting people to work and I just coordinate them. And I realize after I put on hold with my Financial adviser job I started to step back with what I had done. No more revision!! I need to start.

Feel so glad that I done what I need to do. I must treasure every moment that I have. And never forget, I still need to fulfill what I want!

Thank you.

Opportunities or Challenges

I am wondering what happen. Every time I had make up my mind to focus and created a well planned route. What also happening these days is that I always happen to face other situation which create a temptation for me to change my plans.


And I had make up my mind yesterday to stay focus in what I need to do. I am sorry to reject all the opportunities that I gotten but nevertheless, I promise that I will find it back in my future path. Focus is all I need. Being to know what I really what is really hard. Because all I also want. But which one will bring you what I need and after fulfilling it, I can get what I wants. 


This come to a stop after yesterday procrastination. I need to wake up and start my engine again to move off to where I suppose to go! 


Therefore, overcoming what I need to let go is never easy. But with the focus that I have, it worth deserving to let it go! Hope people who also faced the same problem hope you can solve it the way that you want to focus! 

What a shame!

I just do not know what happen. When I started posting something here, I am just afraid to be laughed by others or being pinpoint by people. Ultimately, I had come to a conclusion i should not be affect by what other feel or think or say about what I posted and who I am.

I agreed that I am encentric eccentric. That is me! If everyone were to be the same, what is our finger for? Can't you see that they are different length and size? Why compare and stop discriminate others by how he or she behave, how he or she appearance! I am not sure what I am here to share. But Just feel that the world there is nothing prefect and we should stop stereotype and start open up our mind to look at things positively.

Study inspiration

I am a marker! Guess this is the first time in a major parade. I have being trying to stay as positive as I could no matter how bright the sun was, how long is the training and the number of re-do I did. Well, it is just the matter of want or not.

After the long hour of training, we were given a privilege to book in back camp the next day before 1pm. And off we go for the night out.

Wen wei, Louis yeo and I went to eat subway for dinner then head to mac Donald and I drink tea. I share with them about my worries for study.

1) I had missed out chances in applying into local University, it is really a waste and I might not be able to enter even I apply.
2) English result was done badly during O level exam. Will always feel that University would not want me due to my result. Even apply to moe, it will be hard. And furthermore, John Goh with GPA of 3.5 also cannot get in. Don't expect I can.
3) Apply degree from informatics academy. Will it be recognize? How well will it be? How will we learn? Will I be hardworking enough and get a first class honour? Does this certification accepted by most MNC and government sector? Will I be working in that line?
4) Study at UniSIM for IT (ERP). Which take 4 years to complete. Waste time and will it be a problem to find a job related? Or will I be working as that?

All these make me a headache. Well, I should be very happy. In my life in NS, I was being inspired by my friends. Some was doing revision for their uni, reading book and newspaper, the will power of getting their work done. It trigger me everytime! I will start to question myself... What make them carry on working or reading? What is the urges that keep thek burning? Why I cannot? What stop me from doing so? Kind of say when I were to compare.

I am very lucky to have friends who actually share with me their way of doing and as what Louis said, it is all about discipline. Well, I think they are someone I should think of when I start procrastinate! Hope I can do my best. Thank you.