Thursday, 22 September 2011
22 September 2011 reflection
No more luck! It is an excuse!
After thinking through about what i had did for the past weeks, again i did not add any value in my life. All was i depend on luck to drive me around. Therefore, taking this chance for me to spend time with my family. Overall, not that bad.
I went to swim for the past 2 days. I saw books was set up to sell and i went to look at it. Somehow, it created an interest in me! I thought of collecting old books and donate it to under privilege kids. Also, i want to buy books that inspired me to read. Then my thoughts start to wonder! Books that inspired me to read!!? It sparked my mind. So now i know why M5 does not give me the kind of inspiration! I need to look for it! I think i have to start picking up myself in reading le! No more luck! Is depend whether i want it anot.
After thinking through about what i had did for the past weeks, again i did not add any value in my life. All was i depend on luck to drive me around. Therefore, taking this chance for me to spend time with my family. Overall, not that bad.
I went to swim for the past 2 days. I saw books was set up to sell and i went to look at it. Somehow, it created an interest in me! I thought of collecting old books and donate it to under privilege kids. Also, i want to buy books that inspired me to read. Then my thoughts start to wonder! Books that inspired me to read!!? It sparked my mind. So now i know why M5 does not give me the kind of inspiration! I need to look for it! I think i have to start picking up myself in reading le! No more luck! Is depend whether i want it anot.
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Wednesday, 21 September 2011
My audience
Dear Audience,
I am really grateful to have you.
Please forgive my broken english. As I just key in without looking through for error and without disgusting it properly. But I believe you still understand what I am writing right! =p
Why I start of with this is because my Sister is one of my audience! She came back and told me I inspired her to start a blog too! That is good news too.
Alright. Now here my Sharing.
I realize I had spent more than a month doing what I do not think I should do. I am now not spending, and earning very little! I am just staying a home rotting and staring in the blank! Well, I had slowly stepping out of my room of the blank space.
Why slowly? It is because I decided to take it slowly as I am taking this moment to enjoy what I have around me. If I were to start working, the time that I spend for my family will be even lesser. After my granny went to the hospital, I realize things will be very different without her. How long will she be with me? What can I do for her to make her feel living in this world is worthwhile! What she had given me, is something that can never so easily be replace. Why is that so! It is just the heart to heart relationship that we had.
For the past days, I had push her out of house and we went suntan near by. And today, I brought her to Pioneer Mall and she saw clothing that she could wear. I was with some fear as I know that if she were to buy, she will still have problem with the fitting of the clothing. That is additional problem. After that, we went to MacDonald and I had my breakfast. Then pushes her with her Mercedes to near by neighborhood and end the trip. For the whole trip I had never get her to spend. Cause the amount that she spend on me is always more than what I can spend for her.
When I am at home, I realize that I always keep sway with other projects instead of studying. My projects is kind of worries for me. And I just send email getting people to work and I just coordinate them. And I realize after I put on hold with my Financial adviser job I started to step back with what I had done. No more revision!! I need to start.
Feel so glad that I done what I need to do. I must treasure every moment that I have. And never forget, I still need to fulfill what I want!
Thank you.
I am really grateful to have you.
Please forgive my broken english. As I just key in without looking through for error and without disgusting it properly. But I believe you still understand what I am writing right! =p
Why I start of with this is because my Sister is one of my audience! She came back and told me I inspired her to start a blog too! That is good news too.
Alright. Now here my Sharing.
I realize I had spent more than a month doing what I do not think I should do. I am now not spending, and earning very little! I am just staying a home rotting and staring in the blank! Well, I had slowly stepping out of my room of the blank space.
Why slowly? It is because I decided to take it slowly as I am taking this moment to enjoy what I have around me. If I were to start working, the time that I spend for my family will be even lesser. After my granny went to the hospital, I realize things will be very different without her. How long will she be with me? What can I do for her to make her feel living in this world is worthwhile! What she had given me, is something that can never so easily be replace. Why is that so! It is just the heart to heart relationship that we had.
For the past days, I had push her out of house and we went suntan near by. And today, I brought her to Pioneer Mall and she saw clothing that she could wear. I was with some fear as I know that if she were to buy, she will still have problem with the fitting of the clothing. That is additional problem. After that, we went to MacDonald and I had my breakfast. Then pushes her with her Mercedes to near by neighborhood and end the trip. For the whole trip I had never get her to spend. Cause the amount that she spend on me is always more than what I can spend for her.
When I am at home, I realize that I always keep sway with other projects instead of studying. My projects is kind of worries for me. And I just send email getting people to work and I just coordinate them. And I realize after I put on hold with my Financial adviser job I started to step back with what I had done. No more revision!! I need to start.
Feel so glad that I done what I need to do. I must treasure every moment that I have. And never forget, I still need to fulfill what I want!
Thank you.
Thursday, 8 September 2011
Taking a simple theory examination
This is my forth time taking M5 test already. While I am typing down my reflection, my heart keep giving me a heart pain kind of feeling. Why? The pain for failing the test? Somehow. The pain for spending money? Not really. The feeling for wasting my trip down for the test? No. The uncomfortable feeling for not giving 100% focus in it? AND THAT IS IT!
I somehow know my answer. But is that the root of the whole problem? I keep questioning myself. I did try putting in my best to do mock questions on line and even paper. Isn't it enough? I think it is. My spend my time reading and highlighting not good? Cannot store in my brain? Indeed some only.
During today test, I am so tie up by the few questions that I am unsure. I am confidently that out of 60 questions I can score, but the other questions, it is in a risk. From there, I start to feel low confident of myself. So after the test, I am feeling damn low. I can not forgive myself. Maybe it is just one mark more to reach 75 but I see myself end with a rush as I do not dare to look further.
After the test, I do not wish to go back home. I just feel like finding someone to distress but I could not manage to find someone. With that draggy feeling, I went to boost my energy by eating burger king with the Hershey sundae pie!
Saturday, 27 August 2011
Career Path
I am always happy to share my career path journey.
Before I officially ORD, I actually draw a concern to all my peers about my future. Most people will say to going to University to pursue a degree. Some will say Experience is more important. Therefore, they choose to work. Then, I ask them again. What kind of job you are looking for? Have you sent out your resume? "Don't have" is the common answer that I heard.
But for me, I am so kiasu! One month before ORD, I had send out to various companies, mainly IT, HR, Financial industry. None of them replied expect Financial companies.
"That is not what I want! Insurance!? No way!" But in the end, I ended up in Financial industry.
I started off with interviews in other Financial Companies. It was to had a experience of a job interview. And, there was a day I came back home from interview and I saw my financial adviser. We had a chat and so randomly I told her, "Why not I join you!". It not out of desperate or I really like job. I feel that since there are so many financial interview that I go to, why not I work with someone that I know of. This is how I started.
I went to meet my boss, It was a different encounter. Normally boss for interview will ask interviewee to tell them more about themselves. But my this boss, ask me more about what I needs and how I can use this job to fulfill what I wants. Well, someone told me that this is a tactic used by Financial company. For me, it does make sense.
After meeting my boss, for the next 2 to 3 days, I have being following him. He is someone who is good in leverage on resources. Went to his other businesses and see how he train others. Contributing back to society and educating others is something that I make me look up to him!
In Financial industry, a financial adviser is very important! Educating the clients, helping them to manage their funds, and also providing a good services is what I believe we need to do! But not all advisers are like this! This is the saddest part! It will cause harm to others who they trust you to manage their finance. And this is the reason why I do not choose to further pursue my interest of being a MOE teacher. As this show that the impact that will act on for others.
For my boss, he is also care about not his clients, he concern his team clients. He enforce and emphasize to all his Financial advisers that we need to play our part to act on clients money. And also think about welfare and customer services that our team provide.
With these learning and the nature of job, I believe I had make up my choice to walk down this path of life!
Opportunities or Challenges
I am wondering what happen. Every time I had make up my mind to focus and created a well planned route. What also happening these days is that I always happen to face other situation which create a temptation for me to change my plans.
And I had make up my mind yesterday to stay focus in what I need to do. I am sorry to reject all the opportunities that I gotten but nevertheless, I promise that I will find it back in my future path. Focus is all I need. Being to know what I really what is really hard. Because all I also want. But which one will bring you what I need and after fulfilling it, I can get what I wants.
This come to a stop after yesterday procrastination. I need to wake up and start my engine again to move off to where I suppose to go!
Therefore, overcoming what I need to let go is never easy. But with the focus that I have, it worth deserving to let it go! Hope people who also faced the same problem hope you can solve it the way that you want to focus!
And I had make up my mind yesterday to stay focus in what I need to do. I am sorry to reject all the opportunities that I gotten but nevertheless, I promise that I will find it back in my future path. Focus is all I need. Being to know what I really what is really hard. Because all I also want. But which one will bring you what I need and after fulfilling it, I can get what I wants.
This come to a stop after yesterday procrastination. I need to wake up and start my engine again to move off to where I suppose to go!
Therefore, overcoming what I need to let go is never easy. But with the focus that I have, it worth deserving to let it go! Hope people who also faced the same problem hope you can solve it the way that you want to focus!
Wednesday, 24 August 2011
19 days after ORD
Today, 24 August 2011. Finally I started to type my reflection. I just met up with Damien, Wen wei and Louis at pioneer mall so call supper. I am so happy that everyone got their stuff in place and well planned. On the other hand, I think I am still stuck somewhere in the forest bashing out to find a track so as to navigate myself again.
The situation now for me is like I already had a very strong sense of direction to the path that I suppose to go but there are route that also appear just right beside me and I am pretending that it is not there. And the route that I see now is not a show in my map. I keep insist to know that after bashing this thick path, I am able to see the route.
Now the question is... How thick!?
I think I had enlighten myself through this reflection.
Anyway, I had good time talking to my fellow army friends. It is so nice to see them after 20 days of ORD. They are busy mugging their study and I am here keep worrying about my future.
Keep on going! Life is full of challenges!
The situation now for me is like I already had a very strong sense of direction to the path that I suppose to go but there are route that also appear just right beside me and I am pretending that it is not there. And the route that I see now is not a show in my map. I keep insist to know that after bashing this thick path, I am able to see the route.
Now the question is... How thick!?
I think I had enlighten myself through this reflection.
Anyway, I had good time talking to my fellow army friends. It is so nice to see them after 20 days of ORD. They are busy mugging their study and I am here keep worrying about my future.
Keep on going! Life is full of challenges!
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