Taking a simple theory examination

This is my forth time taking M5 test already. While I am typing down my reflection, my heart keep giving me a heart pain kind of feeling. Why? The pain for failing the test? Somehow. The pain for spending money? Not really. The feeling for wasting my trip down for the test? No. The uncomfortable feeling for not giving 100% focus in it? AND THAT IS IT! 

I somehow know my answer. But is that the root of the whole problem? I keep questioning myself. I did try putting in my best to do mock questions on line and even paper. Isn't it enough? I think it is. My spend my time reading and highlighting not good? Cannot store in my brain? Indeed some only. 

During today test, I am so tie up by the few questions that I am unsure. I am confidently that out of 60 questions I can score, but the other questions, it is in a risk. From there, I start to feel low confident of myself. So after the test, I am feeling damn low. I can not forgive myself. Maybe it is just one mark more to reach 75 but I see myself end with a rush as I do not dare to look further. 

After the test, I do not wish to go back home. I just feel like finding someone to distress but I could not manage to find someone. With that draggy feeling, I went to boost my energy by eating burger king with the Hershey sundae pie!