船到桥头自然值

船到桥头自然
I am still sterling the handle heading aimlessly. I could not sleep. I do not know what to do. But the best way to pour things out was to blog here.

I somehow realize that I am not working hard in my life. I thought that I had went out working since I am young is already shown that I had a positive learning attitude and well grown adult. After knowing about IPP, I am not anyone who is so great. I feel useless and feel so different.

I hate myself from just saying but no actions. I do not know what I want. I am really clueless.

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Not Organized!

From my date of ORD till now, I had not done much organisation with my own store! Keep hesitating and procrastinating with what I wish to do.

Whenever I look at my stuff lying around me, I just do not feel like doing anything to it. To my reflection, I feel that to be someone who is successful will always take the first step. 千裡之行, 使于足下.

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23 September 2011 reflection

I feel like a loser!
Again failed to plan, planned to fail.
I had not completed what I wanted to work on. But I had did other things that I did not plan to. I am just feeling sad that I did not complete what I wanted to.

Started of with my day by looking after my unfriendly little girl. Then I brought MacDonald supreme breakfast to make me satisfy. With what? I don't know. Then back to my cove to entertain my cyber me! Basically, these are what I do daily now.

I realized that I had not make full use of my time. Cyber me had slow me from moving forwards. I spend entire time interacting with him instead of real life person! I neglected my family and forgo the fun with interacting with people! Now, got to know how to manage it! And today, I posted alot of motivation video and stories in here too! That was part of my happiness today!

Around 4pm, I ran to SAFRA Jurong and had a swim then ran back. While I resting for my lap swim, there is a incident happened! A man was struggling at the pool side and the life guard didn't hesitate to rescuse him. It is a complement! I am wondering people had help you and you didn't appreciate. On the other hand, when help wasn't available you just go complaint! That such a dirt! At that moment, I feel like going to the counter to complement the life guard for doing such a good deed. But I didn't! Cause I find it not relavent to me. What pull me to do it again is because I encounted the same problem and I would like to gain the pride of a life guard! Anyway, it's over.

Back home, I met Jun Yuan for dinner. Actually additional desert after meal from home. He is doing great! Well, I told him that I had put on hold for my financial line while I am trying to let go of my other activities. Additionally, I had spend more time with my family. Somehow, I feel it just an excuse! He said that I am lost! Am i? I realize I am finding my purpose of engaging in what I am doing. We had a short session but nevertheless, I am glad to meet up with friend that we had disperse from NS after ORD.

I came back home after the meet up, I realize that I am just finding reason and not striving hard for what I wish to! A wish can be fulfilled, a goal can be met, a dream can be pursued! What am I waiting for! Time wait for no man!

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Everyone can make a difference to anyone!

I saw this story and heard this story numerous times. Somehow energy die down and restart again in helping. But I do believe when we pick someone up (i.e. Starfish), we feel better too. Even I cannot help everyone, I believe I had made a difference in the one I pick up!  

Life is just like a cup of coffee

Before I watch this video, I read somewhere from 9.38 FM, Slice of life.
I am very please with this story. It really bring out the meaning of living in this world. Everyone of us really want to achieve what we want and we just neglect what around us that we also have to bring them along. Then somehow contradicting what we want and what we wish.
I lobe coffee is also because of this story. Let's enjoy the cup of coffee that we are having!

Never give up! Focus what you want!

One more to go! Never give up!

Problem!? No worries!

Problem!? No worries! 

Take a look at this video and follow what it shared. Solve your problem! Nothing is impossible! 

Leadership!

Recently I have being trying to do my usual finding of motivation. I came across this video and I find it meaningful. The quote that it use is really useful. Maybe someday we can make use of these phase to keep our life motivated and happy moving on in our life!
More to come!

Solving a problem!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HN3pm9qYAUs&feature=youtube_gdata_player

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Leadership

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z7O8s6NgAck&feature=youtube_gdata_player

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22 September 2011 reflection

No more luck! It is an excuse!
After thinking through about what i had did for the past weeks, again i did not add any value in my life. All was i depend on luck to drive me around. Therefore, taking this chance for me to spend time with my family. Overall, not that bad.

I went to swim for the past 2 days. I saw books was set up to sell and i went to look at it. Somehow, it created an interest in me! I thought of collecting old books and donate it to under privilege kids. Also, i want to buy books that inspired me to read. Then my thoughts start to wonder! Books that inspired me to read!!? It sparked my mind. So now i know why M5 does not give me the kind of inspiration! I need to look for it! I think i have to start picking up myself in reading le! No more luck! Is depend whether i want it anot.

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My audience

Dear Audience,

I am really grateful to have you.
Please forgive my broken english. As I just key in without looking through for error and without disgusting it properly. But I believe you still understand what I am writing right! =p

Why I start of with this is because my Sister is one of my audience! She came back and told me I inspired her to start a blog too! That is good news too.

Alright. Now here my Sharing.

I realize I had spent more than a month doing what I do not think I should do. I am now not spending, and earning very little! I am just staying a home rotting and staring in the blank! Well, I had slowly stepping out of my room of the blank space.

Why slowly? It is because I decided to take it slowly as I am taking this moment to enjoy what I have around me. If I were to start working, the time that I spend for my family will be even lesser. After my granny went to the hospital, I realize things will be very different without her. How long will she be with me? What can I do for her to make her feel living in this world is worthwhile! What she had given me, is something that can never so easily be replace. Why is that so! It is just the heart to heart relationship that we had.

For the past days, I had push her out of house and we went suntan near by. And today, I brought her to Pioneer Mall and she saw clothing that she could wear. I was with some fear as I know that if she were to buy, she will still have problem with the fitting of the clothing. That is additional problem. After that, we went to MacDonald and I had my breakfast. Then pushes her with her Mercedes to near by neighborhood and end the trip. For the whole trip I had never get her to spend. Cause the amount that she spend on me is always more than what I can spend for her.

When I am at home, I realize that I always keep sway with other projects instead of studying. My projects is kind of worries for me. And I just send email getting people to work and I just coordinate them. And I realize after I put on hold with my Financial adviser job I started to step back with what I had done. No more revision!! I need to start.

Feel so glad that I done what I need to do. I must treasure every moment that I have. And never forget, I still need to fulfill what I want!

Thank you.

Taking a simple theory examination

This is my forth time taking M5 test already. While I am typing down my reflection, my heart keep giving me a heart pain kind of feeling. Why? The pain for failing the test? Somehow. The pain for spending money? Not really. The feeling for wasting my trip down for the test? No. The uncomfortable feeling for not giving 100% focus in it? AND THAT IS IT! 

I somehow know my answer. But is that the root of the whole problem? I keep questioning myself. I did try putting in my best to do mock questions on line and even paper. Isn't it enough? I think it is. My spend my time reading and highlighting not good? Cannot store in my brain? Indeed some only. 

During today test, I am so tie up by the few questions that I am unsure. I am confidently that out of 60 questions I can score, but the other questions, it is in a risk. From there, I start to feel low confident of myself. So after the test, I am feeling damn low. I can not forgive myself. Maybe it is just one mark more to reach 75 but I see myself end with a rush as I do not dare to look further. 

After the test, I do not wish to go back home. I just feel like finding someone to distress but I could not manage to find someone. With that draggy feeling, I went to boost my energy by eating burger king with the Hershey sundae pie!