An irritation with Ivan

Well, It was just a short blast of anger with one of my army bunk mate, Ivan. I am not trying to point finger at him that everything is his fault but just want to share what I felt about the walks of my life. Before I start writing, I am not afraid about whether he will read my blog or not, whether will he be angry with me. It really what I felt about things happen between me and him. 


Well, it started not long ago when we had a few incidents where he get angry with me for some reason. I was make an effort to approach him and to find out what he felt about the various incidents which make him angry. After few weeks for not being in camp due to courses that I have to attend. We both seldom talk to each other and I felt that there are gaps between us. 


And sequence, when my friend, Justin was singing song with me in the bunk he will just interrupt the song and link to me with any kind of remarks. I will just let him bring it up. Well, there isn't any thing wrong with that. But one - two time is fine, it doesn't affect me. What make me feel irritated was that he have being doing it more and more often which kind of demoralize the way I am. Kind of interrupt my way of life. Well, just imaging that people block in your way how will you feel... 


Recently, I am not feeling well due to gastric or muscle problem. So when I am explaining to others who interested to know what happen to me, he basically interrupted halfway to the conversion and give ridicule or unpleasant remarks. Does it make one self happy? How will others think about the action? How will I feel when you said that? No sense of pity for me who sick? Sorry to be so mean. I just find that Ivan you are childish. 


I believe that I had told you before when you interact you have to be tactful. Yes! You are soft but you do think without thinking much and when things does not goes in your way, you just fare up and do your usual self which is to bang anything which come to you directly. But does that solve the problem? I doubt so. 


I do not want to tell you straight as I do not know whether you had notice how I react and I do not know whether is it my problem or your problem. So at least I had express it out in my space. I will say I am sorry if it is my problem. But if it is your problem, hope you can change it and hope there wouldn't have others feel that way but did not say anything out.